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Monday, December 13, 2010
Back Again
Well it has been over 12months since I began my weight loss journey I began with Weight watchers and lost about 7kgs. But that all went down the toilet I could not control myself and it all went back on and I found myself back to my beginning weight. Life has been different this time round and WW just didnt work for me like it did last time.So after big chats with my partner I have decided to give Jenny a go many have tried and succeeded before so heres hoping. It has been nice not having to think about what foods to prepare and about portion control especially when dealing with my littles ones. It has not all been plain sailing I have had a couple of falls from the wagon but have gotten back on again.It has been 5 weeks and I have lost 3.3kgs not as fast as I had wanted but steady wins the race and not so much one step forward two steps back thing I was doing on WW where I might loose 3kgs one week but put on 2kgs the next. I have 7 months till I turn 40 and do not want to be this fat when I do so with this in my I am trying my best. I will continue to post on my blog as a way to motive me. My big goals are more exercise and more water if I can acheive this life will be good.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Hello Again
Well it has been a while since i have posted here and my weight loss journey took a big step back and i put back on almost all the weight i had lost. We recieved a letter from the bank saying our mortage was going up so some sacrafices where needed so my memebership to WW was cancelled, but Ad also did some sacraficing as well so all is far. This shouldnt have sent my weight loss journey into a spiral but it did and here i am wondering how will i ever loose all this weight. There are so many inspirational people out there and it doesn't seem to motivate me.Nothing seems to motivate me these days.Will i be fat and forty next year who knows.
Just to catch you up we saw a pediatrician about miss threes lump on her scapular he thinks maybe removal will be a good option as when she starts to wear a back pack it will cause here problems.We will see the doctor again in 6months and then book in and wait for when she can have the operation. We have also discovered that miss one has a cyst on the back of her neck this should not cause any problems for here though. Wow what a lumpy family we are.
Well life is a little dull at the moment we are trying to do this about the house but seem to have no time with Ad at work all the time and me at home with the girls on my own.But life goes on and all is well with the world for now.
Just to catch you up we saw a pediatrician about miss threes lump on her scapular he thinks maybe removal will be a good option as when she starts to wear a back pack it will cause here problems.We will see the doctor again in 6months and then book in and wait for when she can have the operation. We have also discovered that miss one has a cyst on the back of her neck this should not cause any problems for here though. Wow what a lumpy family we are.
Well life is a little dull at the moment we are trying to do this about the house but seem to have no time with Ad at work all the time and me at home with the girls on my own.But life goes on and all is well with the world for now.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Weighing in
I made it to weigh in this week and with some trepidation I hesitantly stepped onto the scale. A loss !!! Much to my surprise, only 200 grams but still a loss, with the inlaws visit and feeling a little blue at times this week my eating habbits have not been the best. I am finding my weight loss journey this time round a little difficult. Being home with my beautiful girls all the time and Ad working longs hours and often saturdays exercise is not easy to fit in and cooking meals that suit all of us on the odd occasion can be a little tricky. The last time I lost alot of weight (50kgs) I was single, carefree and working 5 days a week. I only had to cook meals for myself, could excercise anytime I want and at work I was busy so no temptation to eat food I shouldn't. I would walk to and from work each day.
Well enough reminising about the old days. Don't get me wrong I love my life and my family I just occassionaly miss being carefree and no responsiblities exept for myself. I have had a busy week this week I discovered a lump on my 3 year olds shoulder blade so feeling a little worried off we went to the doctors. After a long wait and a quick visit with the doctor he diagnised an exostosis. What is this you may well ask. Well it is a piece of bone that has grown on another bone. The doctor did say not to worry it will not cause her any problems but just to be sure his diagnosis is correct we left with a referal for an xray. So the next day off we went to get the xray done. We arrive at the imaging rooms closest to home a short walk away only to be told we had to go to the next suburbs rooms as they prefer not to do childrens chests with their old equipment which is not a priorety to be updated any time soon.So short walk home and a drive to the next suburb for our xray, miss three was of course in a bad mood by now having to miss playgroup was giving me grief in the car until we found a park 20 mins later. Then a quick xray a jaunt in the park to pick miss three up and off home. Alls good or so I think until later a call from the doctor saying the xray was inconclusive we better have an ultrasound. So the next day off to the doctors to pick up the new referal and a phone call to make an appointment only to be told none availably yet and we will have to wait for a call for the next available appointment at one of their rooms. So we will wait.
So now I am mid week again and have been to busy to worry about me and looking after myself will have to try hard for the next few days so as not to gain weight which seems to be a pattern for me, loose for 2 weeks gain the next. Maybe i will aim for some sort of exercise in the next few days ?? Not sure what though will have to get imaginative with 2 little girls and rain outside. Stay tuned to find out what I did for exercise
Well enough reminising about the old days. Don't get me wrong I love my life and my family I just occassionaly miss being carefree and no responsiblities exept for myself. I have had a busy week this week I discovered a lump on my 3 year olds shoulder blade so feeling a little worried off we went to the doctors. After a long wait and a quick visit with the doctor he diagnised an exostosis. What is this you may well ask. Well it is a piece of bone that has grown on another bone. The doctor did say not to worry it will not cause her any problems but just to be sure his diagnosis is correct we left with a referal for an xray. So the next day off we went to get the xray done. We arrive at the imaging rooms closest to home a short walk away only to be told we had to go to the next suburbs rooms as they prefer not to do childrens chests with their old equipment which is not a priorety to be updated any time soon.So short walk home and a drive to the next suburb for our xray, miss three was of course in a bad mood by now having to miss playgroup was giving me grief in the car until we found a park 20 mins later. Then a quick xray a jaunt in the park to pick miss three up and off home. Alls good or so I think until later a call from the doctor saying the xray was inconclusive we better have an ultrasound. So the next day off to the doctors to pick up the new referal and a phone call to make an appointment only to be told none availably yet and we will have to wait for a call for the next available appointment at one of their rooms. So we will wait.
So now I am mid week again and have been to busy to worry about me and looking after myself will have to try hard for the next few days so as not to gain weight which seems to be a pattern for me, loose for 2 weeks gain the next. Maybe i will aim for some sort of exercise in the next few days ?? Not sure what though will have to get imaginative with 2 little girls and rain outside. Stay tuned to find out what I did for exercise
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
The Inlaws
Well didnt make it to WW to weigh in this week and am not feeling to hopeful about weight loss in fact I am sure I have gained. It has been a bit of a stressful week and i have reverted back to old ways. Ads father and step mum came to visit us this week from up north. Of course we had to go out for dinner and they paid and knowing Ads step mum I can just here her saying to her family and anyone who will listen. "She wouldnt even cook for us we had to go out and buy dinner for everyone and her daughter was so badly behaved and the baby just sat in the pram" Whenever she is here you hear nothing but bad things about all Ads brothers and there wives and children and you know the minute she leaves here she is talking about us in the same way.
But the saga doesn't end with a one night visit we happily waved them off from the front porch and just as we relaxed and decided to do some nice family things the phone rings. OMG their car is playing up and they need to get it fixed so back they come for another night and of course Ad was of to TAFE. This left me at home with bub, a three year old who loves to do the wrong thing at the right time and The Inlaws!!!!! This would have to have been the longest evening of my life. Trying to think up conversation and not do anything that may bring upon us more gossip and condemnation I struggled to control my three year old daughters cheeky behavouir and be the good mum when all I hear is "Oh when is the baby ready for a feed?" " I think she is tired" "Do you make your own food I used to but we didnt have tinned food when my children where little". "Oh this kid had diarhorre" when all it was was baby poo that had oozed from the side of her nappy "She needs a bath" I wave forlornly to Ad as he leaves to drop his dad at the mechanics and go to TAFE.
Oh please let this evening end. But it gets better. "Oh we must buy dinner tonight for having us put you out like this". "Lets have KFC I will get enough for Adi to take for lunch the next day". "No I say let me cook" sitting in my fridge is steak chicken and sausages and salad ready from the night before when I had prepared to cook us all a meal. "Oh no no no we will buy" My stressed mind was thinking " Yes yes yes please feed me fried chicken and chips comfort food that will get me throught the night" My sensable mind was thinking " I should be eating grilled chicken and salad thats the best for loosing weight." But of course the step mother inlaw and my stressed mind won out and KFC it was. I enjoyed every mouthful knowing it was a meal from the devil but not caring as the comfort from eating the wrong food at least made the evening bearable.
Ad arrived home late that evening by this time his dad had gone to bed and I had gotten both my little angels to sleep and was sitting watching a little television with his step mum listening to her regale stories about how wonderful her children and grandchildren are and how ungrateful Ads siblings and families are. All this time I was praying for the earth to open up and eat me before I ransacked my kitchen looking for more comfort food and eat myself to death. Chocolate please give me chocolate!!!. We climbed into bed and Ad was soon asleep ready to rise at some ungodly hour to head for work and leave me to say bye to his family. I woke to his dad sitting quiet on the back veranda waiting for his wife to wake and the machenics to open hoping there car would be drivable to Sydney to visit her family and get ther care fixed by "Her daughters wonderful friend who would fix ther car for their return journey home"
Finally I waved them off and with fingers crossed prayed for the call that would tell me they where on there way to Sydney. Pensively I waited and a little while later it came. So now I sit quietly relaxing and feeling the need for more comfort food but telling myself no weigh in is only a few days off and I need to get back on track. I would love a cup of tea and a nice chocky bisciut but instead i will have a glass of water and a peice of fruit.
But the saga doesn't end with a one night visit we happily waved them off from the front porch and just as we relaxed and decided to do some nice family things the phone rings. OMG their car is playing up and they need to get it fixed so back they come for another night and of course Ad was of to TAFE. This left me at home with bub, a three year old who loves to do the wrong thing at the right time and The Inlaws!!!!! This would have to have been the longest evening of my life. Trying to think up conversation and not do anything that may bring upon us more gossip and condemnation I struggled to control my three year old daughters cheeky behavouir and be the good mum when all I hear is "Oh when is the baby ready for a feed?" " I think she is tired" "Do you make your own food I used to but we didnt have tinned food when my children where little". "Oh this kid had diarhorre" when all it was was baby poo that had oozed from the side of her nappy "She needs a bath" I wave forlornly to Ad as he leaves to drop his dad at the mechanics and go to TAFE.
Oh please let this evening end. But it gets better. "Oh we must buy dinner tonight for having us put you out like this". "Lets have KFC I will get enough for Adi to take for lunch the next day". "No I say let me cook" sitting in my fridge is steak chicken and sausages and salad ready from the night before when I had prepared to cook us all a meal. "Oh no no no we will buy" My stressed mind was thinking " Yes yes yes please feed me fried chicken and chips comfort food that will get me throught the night" My sensable mind was thinking " I should be eating grilled chicken and salad thats the best for loosing weight." But of course the step mother inlaw and my stressed mind won out and KFC it was. I enjoyed every mouthful knowing it was a meal from the devil but not caring as the comfort from eating the wrong food at least made the evening bearable.
Ad arrived home late that evening by this time his dad had gone to bed and I had gotten both my little angels to sleep and was sitting watching a little television with his step mum listening to her regale stories about how wonderful her children and grandchildren are and how ungrateful Ads siblings and families are. All this time I was praying for the earth to open up and eat me before I ransacked my kitchen looking for more comfort food and eat myself to death. Chocolate please give me chocolate!!!. We climbed into bed and Ad was soon asleep ready to rise at some ungodly hour to head for work and leave me to say bye to his family. I woke to his dad sitting quiet on the back veranda waiting for his wife to wake and the machenics to open hoping there car would be drivable to Sydney to visit her family and get ther care fixed by "Her daughters wonderful friend who would fix ther car for their return journey home"
Finally I waved them off and with fingers crossed prayed for the call that would tell me they where on there way to Sydney. Pensively I waited and a little while later it came. So now I sit quietly relaxing and feeling the need for more comfort food but telling myself no weigh in is only a few days off and I need to get back on track. I would love a cup of tea and a nice chocky bisciut but instead i will have a glass of water and a peice of fruit.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
My New Beginning
Years ago, well it seems like years ago I began my weight loss journey I weighed a huge 121kgs. I joined WW and worked hard eating correctly exercising everyday and it paid off I got down to 72kg. I was happy I enjoyed the new slim me. I was single guys paid attention to me and at my high school reunion no-one recognised me. Life was sweet. I travelled overseas and enjoyed my job as an Early Childhood Educator. I met lots of people and had a lot of fun.
I then decided that maybe I needed a new career path. I became a tour manager and spent time travelling around Australia for a few months. This kind of lifestyle made it hard to maintain my weight some of it creeped back on but I was only 81kgs and still felt good and I guess looked ok so it didn't worry me. I maintained around the 80 to 85kg mark for the next few years.I was happy at this weight although it was not as healthy for me as being 72 I still felt and looked ok and it was not hard to maintain this weight.
I had a fun time travelling about and even lived in Japan for 6 months. There it was easy to maintain my weight my only mode of transport a bike and of course japanese cuisine was new so watching my diet was easy. After six months I moved back to Australia and settled back in to a familiar lifestyle of be an Early childhood Educator again and soon met my partner. Life was sweet. We moved in together. I became complacent about what I ate and about exercise. We ate out and partied alot and in general enjoyed being together. I had begun to creep closer to the 95kg mark.
Soon I realised that my body clock was ticking I was 35! if we didn't have children or attempt to now it might never happen. We discussed this and both decided that yes we wanted children together. So we tried and I fell pregnant quickly. Nine months later we had a beautiful daughter and I had gained over 20kgs. Ad didnt mind but deep inside I did. I tried all the shake and tablet diets out there to help shift the weight. I also joined contours but getting there when you partner was working away from home proved a little tricky I did have great support from family and friends but I just could seem to do it. The next thing I new I was turning 38 OMG my little girl was almost two. Should we have another child? We answered yes. So again we tried and I fell pregnant easily. Well as easy as it could be when you partner was only home on weekends. Nine months later another beautiful baby girl and a move to a new town so we could all be together as a family. I also discovered I had put on another 10kgs.
So now it is 7 months after the birth of my second baby daughter and here I am feeling lonely due to the move away from family and friends. My partners sister is getting married in September and I have decided that I don't want to be this fat for her wedding god forbid I will have to be in family photos I don't want to stick out. I want to be able to wear something nice not something that fits. I am Suddenly Seeking Slim. I have joined WW where I discovered I weighted 128kgs and althought the journey is not as easy as it was the first time round I am determined to loose weight again. I am doing this mostly for me but also for my family. I want to be fit and happy with life.So far on my journey I have lost 6.9kgs in 4 months slower than I wanted but as they say slow and steady wins the race.
I hope to update this blog as my journey continues and maybe put up some photos. I hope to use this as a way to keep me motivated and help keep me busy.
I then decided that maybe I needed a new career path. I became a tour manager and spent time travelling around Australia for a few months. This kind of lifestyle made it hard to maintain my weight some of it creeped back on but I was only 81kgs and still felt good and I guess looked ok so it didn't worry me. I maintained around the 80 to 85kg mark for the next few years.I was happy at this weight although it was not as healthy for me as being 72 I still felt and looked ok and it was not hard to maintain this weight.
I had a fun time travelling about and even lived in Japan for 6 months. There it was easy to maintain my weight my only mode of transport a bike and of course japanese cuisine was new so watching my diet was easy. After six months I moved back to Australia and settled back in to a familiar lifestyle of be an Early childhood Educator again and soon met my partner. Life was sweet. We moved in together. I became complacent about what I ate and about exercise. We ate out and partied alot and in general enjoyed being together. I had begun to creep closer to the 95kg mark.
Soon I realised that my body clock was ticking I was 35! if we didn't have children or attempt to now it might never happen. We discussed this and both decided that yes we wanted children together. So we tried and I fell pregnant quickly. Nine months later we had a beautiful daughter and I had gained over 20kgs. Ad didnt mind but deep inside I did. I tried all the shake and tablet diets out there to help shift the weight. I also joined contours but getting there when you partner was working away from home proved a little tricky I did have great support from family and friends but I just could seem to do it. The next thing I new I was turning 38 OMG my little girl was almost two. Should we have another child? We answered yes. So again we tried and I fell pregnant easily. Well as easy as it could be when you partner was only home on weekends. Nine months later another beautiful baby girl and a move to a new town so we could all be together as a family. I also discovered I had put on another 10kgs.
So now it is 7 months after the birth of my second baby daughter and here I am feeling lonely due to the move away from family and friends. My partners sister is getting married in September and I have decided that I don't want to be this fat for her wedding god forbid I will have to be in family photos I don't want to stick out. I want to be able to wear something nice not something that fits. I am Suddenly Seeking Slim. I have joined WW where I discovered I weighted 128kgs and althought the journey is not as easy as it was the first time round I am determined to loose weight again. I am doing this mostly for me but also for my family. I want to be fit and happy with life.So far on my journey I have lost 6.9kgs in 4 months slower than I wanted but as they say slow and steady wins the race.
I hope to update this blog as my journey continues and maybe put up some photos. I hope to use this as a way to keep me motivated and help keep me busy.
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